3-2-2-1

sip, sorry dorry morry sekarang saat ini dan detik ini juga gue mau meledak seledak-ledaknya di blog ini.
GUE BINGUUUUUUUUUUNG !
kebayang gak kalo sahabat (sebenarnya temen deket) kita yang tadinya bareng-bareng terus, sekarang malah terbagi berkubu-kubu ?
njiirrr! gua stress mikirin itu tau gak lo!
gue tadinya ber 8 ama temen-temen deket gue. tapi sekarang? udah jadi 3-2-2-1 ! dan lo tau siapa yang 1 itu ? itu gue ! sebenernya gue 1 itu gara-gara gue bisa masuk yg mana aja,
3 atau 2. gue comfort dimana aja. dan faktanya, gue itu PENENGAH!

jadi gini, yang 3 itu asssiiiiik banget dengan kesibukan mereka, mendadak gak ber 8 lagi. katanya, yg 2 lain itu ngacangin, oke gue terima pendapatnya, karena jujur gue juga ngerasa gitu.
trus, yg 2 orang pertama, malah bilang ke gue kalo yg 3 itu ngacangin mereka berdua. dan sorry gue gak ngerasa yg itu, karena gue jujur yg sekarang menjauh itu yg 2 orang itu. *sorry*
the last, yg 2 orang keduua. mereka ngerasa udah kena kacang sejak awal, karena katanya, yg lain itu ber 6 mulu kemana-mana, mereka berdua ditinggalin. dan gue ngerasa yg itu, karena (tuntutan acting)
gue juga ngikut yg ber 6 (3-2-1).

masalahnya gini, gue pengeeeeen banget nyatuin mereka lagi biar bareng-bareng lagi. gue kangeeeeen ! kalian gak tau rasanya jadi gue gimana ! yg ini gini, yg ini bilangnya gitu, yg satu lagi gimana gitu.
woy, SAKIT ATI tau gak kalo kalian lagi ber 3-2-2 tapi GUE ? SENDIRI !
tapi jujur, gue lebih sering ikut yg ber 3. gue comfort di sana. but truthfully, i feel comfort anywhere.

i miss you guys :'(
badly miss you all so damn much ! :'(

wish we can together again again and again.....

BEST

let me introduce them ;)

who are they ? they're my best classmates i ever meet. my beloved Relative Class!

from left(stand up) to the right--->

Ojan, Adi, Dicky, Boby, Siwi, Dimas, Dyta, Ijah, Risau, Dai, Niken, Fikry, Salsa, Debby, Ulfa

the sitting girls---> Farah (me). Eggy, Yanaz :")

Sebenarnya ini belum semua, karena gak semua yg dateng pas ultah si Ijah. huhuhu

udahan ya.

I LOVE THEM :')

-frh-

John Mayer ft. Taylor Swift - Half of My Heart

I was born in the arms of imaginary friends
Free to rome made a home out of everywhere I've been
Then you come crashing in, like the realest thing
Trying my best to understand, all that your love can bring

Oh half of my heart has a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart has a right mind to tell you that
I can't keep loving you(can't keep loving you)
Oh with half of my heart

I was made to believe I'd never love somebody else
Made a plan stay the man who could only love himself
Lonely was the song I sang, til the day you came
Showing my another way, and all that my love can bring

Oh half of my hearts got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart has a right mind to tell you that
I can't keep loving you(can't keep loving you)
Oh with half of my heart, with half of my heart

Your faith is strong, but I can only fall short for so long
Down the road, later on
You will hate that I never gave more to you
Then half of my heart

But I can't stop loving you(I can't stop loving you)
I can't stop loving you(I can't stop loving you)
I can't stop loving you, with half of my heart

Oh half of my heart
Half of my heart
Half of my heart has a real good imagination
Half of my hearts got you

Half of my hearts got a right mind to tell you that
Half of my heart won't do

Half of my heart in a shotgun wedding
To a bride with a paper ring

But half of my heart is the part of a man
Whose never truely loved anything

Half of my heart
Oh half of my heart
Half of my heart
Oh half of my heart

Sedikit Curahan Hati

sip, gue mau mulai bercerita.

nggak tau kenapa akhir-akhir ini gue down banget. i think this is not my self.

gak kebayang gimana rasanya gak jadi diri sendiri. gue bingung banget sumpah.

sorry ya readers, gue dulu juga pernah bilang kan kalo gue lagi down, dan ngerasa gak jadi diri sendiri, tapi abis itu gue coba buat bangkit. gue bisa. tapi kenapa sekarang gue down lagi ?

sumpah gue sedih banget sama keadaan gue yang sekarang.

ditambah lagi gue kemaren ngeliat hasil ulangan mtk, daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnn sangat sangat buruk (sorry gak bisa ngasih tau nilanya. privasi). gue kok jadi bego gitu yak ? ih gak ngerti sumpah.

pokoknya gue sekarang lagi down!

dan, satu lagi yang bikin gue gak suyka sama diri gue. gue gampang banget suka ama orang. baek dikit suka, ini dikit suka, itu dikit suka. njir ah bingung gua kan jadinya. tapi temporary sih sukanya. haha

tapi kayaknya yg satu ini bakal lama dah. dan bukan si A pula.

gak usah dibahas deh, heheehehehehehe

eh iya, gue lagi bikin novel. berminat banget utk ngirim ke gagas. semoga aja jadi yak novelnya, hehehehehe

AMIIIIIIIIIIIN

eh udahan ya, gak tau lagi mau nulis apa. heheheeh

byebyebye! muah :*

David Archuleta's

Crush

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside it was a rush, what a rush

?Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way
About me, just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
?Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain?t going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl?
Are we just friends? Is there more? Is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
?Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever!

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
?Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain?t going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
?Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain?t going away-ay-ay
This crush ain't going away-ay-ay

Going away
Going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

You Can

Take me where I've never been
Help me on my feet again
Show me that good things come
To those who wait

Tell me I'm not on my own
Tell me I won't be alone
Tell me what I'm feeling isn't some mistake
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end

If you asked me, I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Baby, when you look at me
Tell me what do you see?
Are these the eyes of someone
You could love?

'Cause everything that brought me here
Well, not it all seems so clear
Baby, you're the one that I've been dreaming of
If anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end

If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love

Only you can take me sailing in your deepest eyes
Bring me to my knees and make me cry
And no one's ever done this
Everything was just a lie and I know, yes, I know

This is where it all begins
So tell me it will never end
I can't fool myself
It's you and no one else

If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
If anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Show me that good things come
To those who wait

A Little Too Not Over You

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else

It's for the best I know it is but I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around, you're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you, not over you

Aren't memories supposed to fade?
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it'd be this hard

Should be strong, movin' on but I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around, you're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret everything I said
No way to take it all back, yeah
Now I'm on my own, how I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand!

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you, not over you

Gak mungkin -,-

and now, i know...

i'm
falling
in love...

with someone, who i thought that he'll realize me, and safe me who i am..

my heart would tell your heart,
i'll keep loving you..
i'm weak when you look at me like that,

and that's what i called,

LOVE..


*ini beneran, gue bener-bener lg poling in lop sama orang. njirrrr, malu sbenernya nulis di sini, tp ya gmn lg, cuma di sini gue bisa ungkapin SEMUANYA! :d

Semua terasa perfect kalo ngeliat dia. Ya Allah...

Kartini's Day

Selamat Hari Kartini ;D

Semua wanita akan terlihat jauh lebih anggun hari ini ;)

Just...

Aku cuma mau kagum aja sama kau. Gak lebih. Aku mungkin yg gak pantes buat kau. Aku gak ngerti. Perasaan aku muncul gt aja.
Cuma gara2 kita saling percaya. Kita sama.
Aku kagum sama kau, tapi nggak akan pernah bisa suka sama kau, apalagi milikin kau :')

Buat seseorang, dan bukan si A..

Just...

Aku cuma mau kagum aja sama kau. Gak lebih. Aku mungkin yg gak pantes buat kau. Aku gak ngerti. Perasaan aku muncul gt aja.
Cuma gara2 kita saling percaya. Kita sama.
Aku kagum sama kau, tapi nggak akan pernah bisa suka sama kau, apalagi milikin kau :')

Buat seseorang, dan bukan si A..

Just...

Aku cuma mau kagum aja sama kau. Gak lebih. Aku mungkin yg gak pantes buat kau. Aku gak ngerti. Perasaan aku muncul gt aja.
Cuma gara2 kita saling percaya. Kita sama.
Aku kagum sama kau, tapi nggak akan pernah bisa suka sama kau, apalagi milikin kau :')

Buat seseorang, dan bukan si A..

This is April's feel

April
Sampai detik ini gak ada yang istimewa di bulan ini
Malahan banyak yang garing

Mau ngungkapin semua disini

Galau
Gerah
Gelap
Hari-hari di permukaan April
Gak ada yang terang
Rasanya,
Semua benar beda dari bulan-bulan sebelumnya
Aku pun begitu
Begitu ingin menangis
Karna terlalu tak tahan
Dengan sgala diskriminasi
Caci maki sana sini
Kata-kata mutiara busuk terlontar 1000 meter
Menusuk ke dalam relung hati
Teringat slalu dalam memori

Namun tak sanggup
Tak bisa ku ungkapkan
Aku tertutup
Tak smua orang bisa melihat rasaku
Bahkan tak ada yang peduli
Melihatku berjalan sendiri
Dengan genangan air mata di pelupuk

Ingin rasanya aku pergi jauh-jauh
Tapi aku tak siap
Satu yang ku inginkan,
Ada yang mau mengerti
Menghargai wujud nyataku
Apa adanya...

This is April's feel

April
Sampai detik ini gak ada yang istimewa di bulan ini
Malahan banyak yang garing

Mau ngungkapin semua disini

Galau
Gerah
Gelap
Hari-hari di permukaan April
Gak ada yang terang
Rasanya,
Semua benar beda dari bulan-bulan sebelumnya
Aku pun begitu
Begitu ingin menangis
Karna terlalu tak tahan
Dengan sgala diskriminasi
Caci maki sana sini
Kata-kata mutiara busuk terlontar 1000 meter
Menusuk ke dalam relung hati
Teringat slalu dalam memori

Namun tak sanggup
Tak bisa ku ungkapkan
Aku tertutup
Tak smua orang bisa melihat rasaku
Bahkan tak ada yang peduli
Melihatku berjalan sendiri
Dengan genangan air mata di pelupuk

Ingin rasanya aku pergi jauh-jauh
Tapi aku tak siap
Satu yang ku inginkan,
Ada yang mau mengerti
Menghargai wujud nyataku
Apa adanya...